I am surrounded by God's majestic masterpiece.  I am in a place that usually satisfies my entire being.  I have friends who are there to encourage me and build me up when i feel weak.  Yet...I find myself yearning for something more.  Oh Lord, quench my thirst.  Point me in the right direction then give me the courage to walk down that path. Keep my candle alit, my God...and my faith in you strong.  As i witness the beauty of the earth around me, i think of you and how much you love me.  I pray youll make me like the trees making my roots go deep within your richness so that i may grow in my faith and stay upright through the teaching of your Word.  Make me like a skies of the sunset--radiant, unique, beautiful, never hiding itself from the world but always displaying the masterpiece that you made it to be. Let my worries and troubles be cast away like the waves in the lake....getting lost in its turbulance and never seeing or recognizing it again.  Knock on my heart, O God...Ill be waiting by the door this time.

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You called again today, again I rejected your call.  I want to be alone, I want to have control, I want to make a happy life for myself.  I pray for guidance and strength...I pray for renewal of spirit and mind.  I pray for familiarity to return and encounterment of fresh faces.  I long for companionship but also seek my solitude.  At night, I cry out to you for mercy and forgiveness through a sheer curtain of stars.  During the day, I gaze upon the majestic beauty in which you hand-craft into each leaf on every tree and exalt Your name.  Through a mob of confusion and a mass of chaos, I reach my hands to you, feeling around the invisible divinity, hoping to grab something secure.  I pray for my life...a rollercoaster ride that dwindles away then returns to its peak.  Its good not to be casual or consistent.  To be in a mess in a wonderful thing...it lets me know that i am persevering.  That i am being molded and made.  Blessings are showered upon me after the burdens crush my vulnerable spirit.  My eyes...open and alert to a new world around me.  I feel strong, I feel anew...but i feel discouraged.  I feel i should have something more...i feel i could have something more.  I feel i used to have that something more but it vanished at the time of my trial. I feel more skepticism, more judgement.  From the ones whose opinions i hold highly...but i know im better off now than i was before-- so why?  I'm still the same me...I am just under construction.  I am being matured and made alive within the freedom of his Spirit.  I am not changing who i am....i am discovering MORE of who i am.  Life has its ups and downs, some tests are tougher than others and require more time and patience.  Shouldn't you as a brother or sister in Christ understand my point?  Then why are you so quick to execute action or make substanital judgements towards me?  Have you not been tested?  Have you not given into temptation?  Have you not failed? or been made aware of your flaws and turned away from them?  Since you have experienced this, why do you assume that I can never be made better? holier? matured?  Why do you believe that God can change your flawed characteristics and quiet you in His Spirit--but He can not do the same for me?  Look at your life and notice how far you have come within the past year...you did not do that on your own.  You are not at all the same person that you once were. How is your case so different than mine?  If we have struggled with the same things--why can we not be there for each other?  Do your reasons for turning me away still hold validity?  God's work in us is never done...whether we act as heathens or "holier than now".  Change is constant, change is inevitable, change is vital, change is good.  In the constant struggles of my daily life and the contradictions in which i subconsciously express...You called again today, again i rejected Your call.

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why am i still so confused?.....why does this longing still live within?....why is this still in the back of my mind?.....why has my hope not yet withered?....where is this drive coming from?....why cant i stop it?.....why dont i get it?.....why do i feel im not wrong?....why am i still so confused?....

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"Take all of me out of me.  I want nothing left.  Take every thought as your own so i will not forget....the price that was paid for me." <---- Fave song at Class Retreat '06

"Do not let the sun go down while you are still angry, and do not give the devil a foothold."  Ephesians 4:23

"A dream delayed is not a dream destroyed." A.T. Hargrove, Class Retreat '06

"Create in me a pure heart, O God, and renew a steadfast spirit within me." Psalm 51:10

"Therefore, do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself.  Each day has enough trouble of its own."  Matthew 6:34

"Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you.  For everyone who asks recieves; he who seeks finds; and to him who knocks, the door will be opened."  Matthew 7:7,8

"Test me, O Lord, and try me, examine my heart and my mind; for your love is ever before me, and I walk continually in your truth."  Psalm 26:2,3

"Wait for the Lord; be strong and take heart, and wait for the Lord." Psalm 27:14

"God is faithful; he will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear.  But when you are tempted, he will also provide a way out so that you can stand up under it."       1 Corinthians 10:23

"Make it your ambition to lead a quiet life, to mind your own busines, and to work with your hands, just as we told you, so that your daily life may win the respect of outsiders and so that you will not be dependant on anybody." 1 Thessalonians 4:11,12

The Lord is revealing so much to me in my life these days.  I am falling in love with my Savior, Jesus Christ more and more from the time the sun rises in the morning till the evening where the sunsets radiate the truly divine Beauty of God. Thank you, God, for trials.  Thank you, God, for tests.  Thank you, God, for friends.  Thank you, God, for reconcilation.  Thank you, God, for experiences.  Thank you, God, for choices.  Thank you, God, for mistakes.  Thank you, God, for knowing that prayer is all it takes.  Thank you, God, for holiness and realizing it comes in many shapes and sizes.  Thank you, God, for dreams that go beyond what is expected of you.  Thank you, God, for inspiration in faith.  Thank you, God, for music that is only made beautiful through you.  Thank you, God, for opportunity.  Thank you, God, for availibility.  Thank you, God, for purpose.  Thank you, God, for life.  Thank you, God for need.  Thank you, God for loving us.  Thank you, God, for peace.

***What's God doing in your life these days? 

                                     <3 Love,  Heather

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